One good news

We are happy to report that her kidney ultrasound came back normal :) Thankfully the thing on her ear should just be a cosmetic thing that I think is rather cute! (and one of the first things I remember about her)

This good news however does not change the puking and choking. Yesterday morning she did not wake up puking or choking which excited me, however she did choke with her 8am and 2pm feedings. Today however I was eating breakfast in bed (not as ideal as it sounds, I pump and eat in bed while I wait for her pump to alarm, the delicacy of the day was a protein bar) she started to choke. It was not as loud as her other chokes and probably would not have woken me up from my sleep however it freaked me out. How many times is she choking like this during the night that I don't hear? Could she be aspirating in her sleep and I don't know? One of the hardest things would be to loose her while I was asleep less then a foot away from her. My heart has just been crushed all day with the thought. However I need sleep too, so we need to find a solution here. She also puked this morning on the way to school. I did not notice it until I went to put her in her carseat on the way home. We see GI on the 19th and I can't wait to come up with a plan to try to figure out what more we can do to help her.

Tonight my amazing mom came out to help me around the house. She is such a blessing in my life. She will drop what she is doing and come over to give me a hand when I am overwhelmed. Tonight I have been warn out between being scared of the night and the need to get the house clean without the energy to do it. Mom brought out dinner and then hung out with Jillian while I did laundry. Jillian's tummy really seamed to be bothering her tonight. She has not pooped since Tuesday and that could be part of the problem, or it could just be her tummy was bothering her. Mom walked and sing to her for almost 2 hours. It was such a blessing to us all! Now she is asleep and I am looking up the sleep monitors on the Babies R Us website. Trying to figure out if they will work in her Rock-N-Play and if they really do work. We will see, maybe a weekend trip to Babies R Us is in order. For now it is bed time for this mommy. The pump needs refilling in just a few hours...