Sunday, July 30, 2017

How Medicaid waver programs are good for a state

Medicaid has had a lot of talk lately but here is a perspective I have not seen.

While I wish I had solid statistics to go with this post, I only have observations because I have yet to find anywhere that has studied this.

I see this question asked at least once a week in different medical parenting groups... "how are services in _______ state?" And that question is typically asking three things 1. How good are the hospitals 2. How are the schools 3. How is the insurance situation.

There seems to be a list of states people always promote and ones they always say to stay away from. One of the biggest things that people say when recommending a state is about insurance because you can always homeschool or online school or open enroll and you can always travel for hospitals but where you live determines a lot about insurance.

States handle Medicaid differently. There are a few websites where you can find information on what waver programs are offered in which state however one thing that I can tell you effects many families with kids with special needs is a program that is often referred to as the Katie Beckett program. This program means that a child under the age of 18 must qualify for nursing home or hospital level care however they must be care for in a community setting. Additionally these programs are exempt from the income guidelines of  Medicaid. Those two things together are important. You have to prove a level of care is needed and to do so there is a lot of paper work involved and turning over your child's medical records and a home visit and requires you to prove yearly that your child still meets the medical requirements. They dig deep to make sure your child medically qualifies. But the second part is important too because the families that qualify make over the poverty line. Many of these are middle class families.

Having a child with medical needs is expensive. I have written about it HERE about how much things cost additionally to the purely medical costs. There is also just that, the medical costs. Our primary insurance has paid over $5,000 in medications for one of our kids this year but Medicaid has also picked up over $2,000 for that same child and it is only July. That is because for these programs medicaid always pays second so they only pick up what our primary insurance does not. Honestly if we had to pay outright for all of the girls after primary insurance medical expenses we would be getting close to how much my husband makes in a year.  

Most of those families who are asking about insurance in a state are asking about the waver programs because most of them are families who make over the poverty line however these programs help to keep these hard working families from going bankrupt with their child's medical bills. But not all states offer programs like this making many of those states without someplace that families with kids with medical needs choose not to live. Having a child with special needs does not exclude the parents from working as hard as they can for their families. While there is sometimes interruptions and sometimes there are different needs of an employee with a child with special needs (my husband works from home on Wednesdays so he can be here when oxygen is delivered) it doesn't mean that the employees are not hard working and valuable employees that work hard for the company. Many hard working professionals that do great things for companies and our economy have kids with special needs. These hard working employees though when choosing where to live are often looking at how good the state is for their family.

Because even though my husband works hard, has a 4 year degree and an employer based health insurance plan, without Katie Beckett we would be bankrupt and likely would have lost our house. That is just the facts. Sucky, crappy facts but what is.

Earlier this year a company came seeking my husband out to work for him (he had not applied for the job, they heard of him by word of mouth) and then a second company made note of interest, however this was April and our out of pocket max is hit in February each year and without Katie Beckett we would not have been even able to talk to either of those companies let alone take a job with one without Katie Beckett because there is no way we could state a deductible over without that helping.

There are many people who chose not to move to states due to their lack of quality medicaid wavers... I see people talk about this all of the time and we have turned down jobs that would mean moving to states with less then desirable Medicaid wavers.

And this pays for a state too. My husband is a professional and we pay taxes. We are evolved in our community. We own a home. While we are not the millionaires states love, we a valuable part of the community.

Without Katie Beckett a cycle of poverty would be stated that I don't know that we could get out of because there is no way we even with a middle class paying job could pay all of the medical bills and extra expenses in a year and that cycle would cost tax payers more. It also incentivizes parents of kids with medical needs to find higher paying jobs because they know they have this net behind them to help them out so that they don't need to stay under the poverty level for straight medicaid.

So I firmly believe Medicaid waver programs help the states that offer them. I know some of you will disagree. Some on the point of complete free market that if you can't pay for something you shouldn't have it however in terms of healthcare for kids given the fact that we are one of the riches countries I think that making kids go without healthcare and making them suffer so you can hold more of your money is cruel. Some will reject this point on the fact that if we didn't have taxes then people would give more to churches and they could help people more but I go to a white church in a well off community and they don't bring in enough money to pay for everything Katie Beckett pay for our family let alone the others in the church and people really like their money. I think waver programs are a good investment for states to make because it helps to keep down other more expensive costs (institutionalized care) and it helps to encourage their citizens with children with special needs to make carrier advancements that help us all as a state.



***I have been writing this post in my head for weeks. Trying to figure out how to put this on paper to get my ideas across. Medicaid is a tricky topic and something so many people view as no matter what it is bad, however I see that it can be used to help not just the people who it is helping but also help the state as a whole and I hope this helped to show why I think that. Before being a parent with two kids with special needs I didn't think I would be on Medicaid and I really didn't have an opinion one way or another other then I have always had a social justice heart so I was in favor of helping others but didn't know much about it but now that it impacts my daily life I see the true value in it. I also don't want anyone to think I am against more traditional medicaid because after interning with Early Heard Start in college I see how much it meets a need to so many hard working families and children and I don't want any of my comments in this post to come off that I am bashing those families, I just want to make a point of how this programs helps a specific group of people and how it helps, I believe how we help and view the poor says a lot about us a society***

Friday, July 28, 2017

Whats a little vomit?

So I blogged last on Wednesday night... since then...

Lydia has been having issues with extra reflux for 2 weeks since going off one of her reflux meds (I understand the dr reasoning behind why we needed to try it) Sunday night she was choking, monday night she was choking on reflux so Tuesday I called the nurse to ask if we could add the med back in once a day (she had been on it twice a day until the start of July when she went down to once a day and then off) but did not hear back on Tuesday. Wednesday Jilli had PT and while there Lydia did the same gagging choking thing she has been doing and then she did it again on the way home. Once home she choked and spit up a few times. We started getting in the mindset of needing to watch this closely because this is how her bleeds both started. I ran to Walgreens to pick up other meds that were needed and Wamart to pick up a few things incase things went south. We went to bed around 11:30 and I at there debating which child to put the pulse ox on... the kid on oxygen or the kid that was choking. Man making choices like that sucks. I was up a few time with her choking between going to bed and 11:45 and then she had a large choke. I was then up the rest of the night with her choking and pooping bile. It sucked. We changed everything she was close to multiple times and things were covered in bodily fluids and I was doing laundry at 3am. Around 5:30 Jilli woke up to us cleaning Lydia up again and then stayed up. The girls had Pt and Ot at 9am so we needed to get out the door by 8:30 which I was hoping to leave by 8:15 but Lydia pooped bile again causing us to not get out the door on time. Through everything Lydia was smiley and acting like herself other then choking, spitting up and pooping bile. She worked hard in PT for 30min but the last 15 she was tired. My mom met us at therapy and helped with the girls and then we dropped her car off at my house and headed down to Shriners. I sat in the back between the girls and held Lydia's passy as she refluxed (it was so sad, she would hand the passy to me when it stated, would scream and then put her hand out for it back) She vomited twice on the way there. Once at Shriners everyone commented on how tired she looked but she was still smiling and didn't have a temp. Thankfully we were in and out of Shriners in a short amount of time and have Lydia's new leg braces. Once we got to the parking lot I called special needs and said I needed a plan now for how to help Lydia because at that point she had pooped bile 6 times and puked at Shriners. At 3:11 I got a message from our GI to start the med again. We drove back in a way that if we needed to go to Children's it would be a shorter drive. The car ride back she did ok and we stopped at the mall on the way to get her some shoes since none of the shoes in the bag of Jilli's old shoes fit her new braces! We were also trying to wait out to see if she needed medical care. She was in that stupid gray zone. Yes she was still getting fluids in but she was also loosing a lot of fluids and she dehydrates really fast. We stopped at Target and bought a thermometer since we didn't have one with us and she felt a little warm (we also picked up toys for RMH as many of their toys are not 50-70% off). She had a temp of 100.1 but was still smiling at us inbetween sleeping. The extra sleeping worried me but she had not slept much the night before and on PT days she is extra sleepy. We decided to come home and see how things played out. Lydia played some and pooped two more times but didn't vomit and her temp . Brent gave her a bath. Jilli made some really poor choices and it was a hard night parenting. I was exhausted running on 2hr of sleep, a lot of stress and not enough coffee.
This morning I woke up to the smell of more poop. I'm not sure when Lydia pooped all over everything during the night but I got her cleaned up and then Jilli woke up saying her body didn't feel good but then she went back to sleep. I was holding Lydia and she pooped all over my clothes so I got that cleaned up and then heard Jilli puke so I ran upstairs and got her cleaned up. I brought Jilli downstairs and she has vomited a few times since and is now sleeping on the couch.
So it looks like we have a virus on top of a med issue for Lydia. We put Lydia back on the med last night so hopefully that stops the long term effects of what has been going on for two weeks and then hopefully we will get back to Lydia's baseline. This was just the prefect storm of Lydia having increased acid issues from the med change and then them getting a virus on top of it. I feel really bad though that we went anywhere yesterday because if I thought Lydia was contagious I would not have and I really hope no one else gets sick. Thankfully at Shriners she was in her car set most of the time and not one else really touched her and at PT they are really good about cleaning anything little kids touch because kids put so much in their mouth, but I really hope her PT doesn't get sick. It also hit Lydia hard then is seams Jilli because Lydia was already having extra reflux issues.
Today we will be home. Jilli is excited for a pajama day. I am just spending lot of time cuddling the girls and cleaning up the messes that come out of them.

Lydia is doing a good job at keeping her leg braces on. I am surprised but really happy. She has not walked in them much yet but with time she will. Right now she is sitting and looking at a Baby Einstine book.

Also waking up to a text from Stacy about the vote made me happy. Like I posted on facebook, I am not against working to fix healthcare issues, put this bill just slashed funding without helping the problems. Just like the dems are accused at throwing money at every problem, the GOP thinks taking away money will solve a problem and really balance is what we need. I am not happy with Ron Johnson though... not just because he voted for it but why he voted for it. He voted yes because Ryan told him they would work on things in the bill on their side when it came back to them, but that is not how we should be voting on bills... say yes to a bill you believe in and if you think it has problems fix it while the ball is in your court, don't just push it off to be someone elses issue in a place you have no say. We elect people to vote on things and not just push their job off to someone else. And what he showed me last night was that he doesn't have the backbone to stand up and do what he feels is right even when he has and issue with it (his issues with the bill were not the same as my issues with it) but that he will fall in line when people promise him things and that his party comes before everything else an I have issues with that. This healthcare debate is not over, but I hope now we can work together as a country to fix our issues by bringing lots of ideas and people to the table and working side by side... that is how our founding fathers set this country up to be run and we need to get back to that and if the people in office can't do that then it is time we stop blindly following parties and find people who can.

So now I need to get back to taking care of my kids, doing more laundry and cleaning more. Hopefully it is a weekend of rest here because we really need it!

Lydia Thursday morning at 7am

Lydia's new let braces

The girls napping today

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

Pulmonology, Tube changes, wheelchair and vomit

I am worn today. Honestly my facebook post for the day was about trying not to cry in my car... So lets rewind to figure out how we got to where we are today...

Sunday we checked into RMH. Caroline's family was there this week as well. RMH has different memberships to places in the area so both of our families were able to go to Betty Brinn together and check out their new CHW area. The kids all had fun. We had dinner at the house and then did art therapy with another one of Jilli's favorite people. On Saturday my parents were over helping with house projects and in the mail came a super hero cape and mission for Jilli. My parents signed her up for tiny superheros which is a program that you can buy a cape for a kid with medical needs and then buy a monthly subscription and then they get missions and these missions teach them about different skills they can use in the hospital. Jilli's first mission was about finding joy so she had to make three bracelets that each spelled joy. One was for her to keep and the other two came with boxes and a thing for her to fill out about why the person she was giving it to brought her joy. She brought her first mission with her to RMH and did it during art therapy Sunday night. She chose to give her bracelets to Caroline and Nate. Sunday night was really rough getting Lydia to bed. They dropped her ranitidine two weeks ago because she is on such a high dose of her other acid med but it is causing her sleep to be even worse. She falls asleep and then arches her back and screams in pain.

Monday morning we got up and Stacy planned a birthday surprise for me.  She said she had planned to make me a cake for my birthday but then she thought about how that is not inclusive for the girls so she came up with an art project we could all do together. I am so touched that she made a point to include my girls and looked past the traditional things and looked at what I enjoy and spending time with people I care about and all being included is important to me and she made sure when they did something for my birthday it went with that. It also follows their family and how they celebrate birthdays. It was so sweet. So we spent the morning painting rocks. The girls and I headed over to the hospital a little early since there was not lunch to go and picked up some Subway (thank you to the person who gave me the subway gift card!) in the skywalk and then headed to pulmonology. The appointment went better then the last one however still had a few points that frustrated me. The dr walked in and Jilli kind of snarkily commented that she was not attached to the pulse ox and I explained that special needs said that was ok and the dr said that she was fine with it since the pulse ox probably was not telling us much since I am always with her and probably was not needed to have been on her 24/7... this is one of those times I am glad I have a rather passive personality because in my head I was thinking "what the crap! I lugged that thing through Disney and everywhere for months with it erroring and Jilli crying about it and now you think it was not needed" but I didn't say that I just sat there because picking a fight about it would not have helped anything. Jilli is transferring to the  muscular dystrophy clinic in September where they look at the lungs for a muscular standpoint which I feel is the best thing for her (currently they are looking at her for an asthma standpoint but that is not the problem) so until then we are not doing anything which is good. For Lydia I brought up that she is starting to show signs of needing oxygen like her sister. We went to the museum and when we were done her lips where discolored from her energy usage. I brought up that we have seen a few pulse ox dips in her in PT as well and the dr said that she is not worried about her dipping into the 70-80s as long as she is not fatigued... This is where my face probably showed what I was thinking... ummm excuse me. A: this is totally different then what they said when Jilli was having this same problem. Jilli was getting worn out from simple things but they refused to do anything until we proved her pulse ox was dipping. B: I'm not ok with those pulse ox numbers! So now we document the crap out of things so when it gets to the point I feel like I need to push on this I have data to back me up. Right now she is still crawling and we are still ok right now but I will be watching this very closing. I do not want her to get to the point Jilli did before she went on oxygen. The dr also wants to up the asthma meds which I am not sure about because the girls needs are not asthma based and there are many studies that show for muscle/connective tissue issues that those meds don't really help. I need to read more before I do anything.
We then headed back to RMH and after work Brent joined us. We had dinner and then headed to music therapy to see another one of Jilli's favorite people. While the house was rather full this week music therapy was just us and Caroline's family and they headed to bed shortly after it started so Jilli got some good time with Melissa which made her really happy.  
Tuesday morning we got up and headed to the art room for a while and then to the play room. In the afternoon the girls both had tube change in IR. Radiology at CHW has been redone and looks really nice. They had both IR rooms open so Brent went in with Lydia and I went in with Jilli. Jilli had a med student which is fine, its a teaching hospital in July, med students are everywhere! He had never put in an AMT button before and I guess putting it in is a little bit different. The dr was telling him it is a little harder then the mic key to put in but that some parents prefer them and push for the AMT so when that happens they put the AMT in... yup I am that parent that pushes for the AMT and I am not sorry at all. Jilli was not excited during tube change but was fine. The med student put too much contrast into her g when checking placement and Jilli almost puked on him but I sat her put fast enough that it shot out the g extension onto the chucks. Jilli was excited when she saw the liquid was yellow and green and commented how she was happy that her liver decided to work on making bile while she got her tube changed. Poor med student, I think he was confused and lost by the time she walked out of the procedure. Brent and Jilli then headed back to RMH and Lydia and I headed up to visit my 8th grade science teacher who has a kiddo in the hospital right now. She is a fellow medical mom which means we connect on a different level. We then headed back to RMH and had dinner. After dinner Brent loaded the car while Jilli did some art and then we headed home.
This morning the girls and I headed to the day care to pick up the coins from the coin war and then to PT for Jilli where I found out that the state sent more questions about Jilli's wheelchair and some of the wording is making us all very nervous (it outright asked if she could rent one from a loan closet until she becomes medically stable!? 1. She is "stable" at the moment, this is what is 2. we have one from a loan closet at the moment and it is not filling her needs, we are thankful for it as a bandaid but it is not a long term solution) so I helped answer some things so her therapists could write the letter to answer the state's questions. I am thankful for her medical teams help in all of this. Her PT emailed me after 8:30 tonight to let me know she just finished the letter. During PT Lydia was crawling around which she normally does and then she came over to me with a worried look on her face and started looking like she was going to puke and make a choking sound. I checked her mouth and she didn't have anything in there. This is the sound she has been making when she has been trying to fall asleep for the past weekish. After PT we headed to Target to get more stomach drain diapers and as we went to leave she did the same thing. Since coming home she has done is many many times. She sounds like she is choking and then a little bit of spit will come out. This is the same thing that happened in October and May. This is Lydia's body's version of a crash. She is happy. She doesn't have a fever, this is just her body not handling things. I called GI yesterday morning at 9:30 to ask if we could go back to once a day ranitidinte because she started having issues when we totally dropped that med. Today I sent a mychart message asking the same thing... I still have not heard back. Hopefully they get back to me tomorrow because this is not ok and I am really worried that she is going to have a GI bleed again. Tonight we are on edge here and are doing little things to prepare incase we need to head to the hospital if a GI bleed starts. This is really rather a bad time because we have Shriners tomorrow to pick up her braces so I am hoping we are able to do that but right now we are taking things minute by minute and I am typing while she cuddles with me.

On Monday my mom also brought the paperwork for medicaid up to our caseworker and she faxed it to the right person. Hopefully now it is in the right place and they can process her Katie Beckett paperwork. That has added more stress this week!

Also congress has not been helping. I wrote a public facebook post about it yesterday so if you want to know my thoughts you can see that. I wrote Ron Johnson again yesterday... honestly at this point I feel like it is for my mental health because I doubt anyone is reading what I send (people like me keep being called payed protestors... I really would like to know who is handing out money to send letters to elected officials... I could use that money to pay for medical things lol but really no one like me or the thousands of other medical parents are getting paid anything we are just worried parents trying to do the best for our kids) I worry if there is less money in the pool for medicaid that wheelchairs and other needed things will become even harder to get because people that play the system will always know how to work it better then I can they will always get something, it will be the rest of us who are hurt. Without a way to lower costs of things cutting money just undefunds something that that means things are going to need to be cut... you don't need a wheelchair to keep breathing and insurance doesn't see the need for you to ever leave your house so things like that are just going to get harder.

Well blogging has helped. Getting it out of my head has helped. Also thank you to the people who commented with support on my facebook post of the people who where texting with me during it. I really appreciate it! I know we will keep fighting but sometimes I have moments where the weight feels crashing and I am thankful for the people who come around me in those moments.

here are pictures, they uploaded in a funny order: 






Lydia tonigt




Jilli with her tiny super hero cape





Jilli took my phone and took this picture when we were getting heady to head in for tube change... she thought it was so funny!



The girls might not eat but they still love to have pretend tea parties





Dancing Lydia


Friday, July 21, 2017

A new day

And we are on to a new day. A calmer day. A day of resolutions.

I started the morning with a call from our caseworker with the state and she said she called around and could not figure out what was going on with our paperwork so she said to get the paperwork to her and she would personally fax it to the disability office to make sure it gets to the right person. My mom is going to bring it up there on Monday for me so hopefully then this is taken care of and they are able to process her paperwork.

We decided to fix Brent's car. In talking with some friends and family we decided that was the best choice. We did the work that needed to be done now to drive it home and then are going to check on prices for the rest of the work. Being an adult is "fun"!

Today my parents and I took the girls to a children's museum. This is a tradition for us that we see how many children's museums we can got to while my mom is off for the summer. This summer is so much easier with the trial wheelchair because it means that Jilli is able to play longer. Each day I check the mailbox just hoping the approval letter is in there. Jilli's best friend got her wheelchair today. At first Jilli was excited to see the picture and then got sad that she didn't have her new wheelchair and we had a conversation about how sometimes we are happy for others while sad about our own circumstances and that is ok but we should congratulate the person who had the happy thing. Thats a good life lesson. We are very excited for Caroline and her new wheelchair.

I also got a call from our pharmacist today because last night I asked him if they have heard yet about Jilli's new neb med (that we have been fighting insurance for since Jilli's hospitalization in April) They called the state today and the state was confused and said we needed to fax them all of the info again. Ugh! Thankfully the pharmacy did that for me. This is crazy. The wasted man hours on insurance stupid mistakes. Our private insurance messes up equally to the state.

Lydia is officially taking a step without holding onto something. We are excited. You can tell she wants to take more so badly but it will come with time, one step is a start. Next week we pick up her braces which should help too because part of why she falls is because her foot goes sideways. I don't think she is to like the braces but I hope they help. She also says the work "up" sometimes and is working to say "mom" she has stopped saying "yea" like she was. She is doing well in the comfy lift bed in the crib.

Time to head to bed. Tomorrow we have several house projects to work on including hopefully finishing the landing for our deck and taking care of the tree branch.










Lydia liked the vet area at the museum with the stuffed dog








RMH gave Lydia a new doll