But here is a raw, real moment...
One of Jilli's favorite things to do in the world is zoo class. Brent's parents get us a zoo membership each year for Christmas. She has been doing them every semester since I stopped working. They have become a little bit trickier since Lydia was born because you can not bring a sibling to zoo class but we started to make them a family event where one parent would take one child to one class and the other parent would take the other child. These has been a big highlight for the girls for a long time.
I have written in the past about how inclusive zoo class has been and about how amazing the staff is. The teachers all know the girls as well as many of the volunteers.
I did not sign us up for any classes this semester when it opened because this fall was filled with hospital time and I did not have the exact dates for all of our travel this spring and I needed to wait until we did because zoo class is non refundable (we actually have a credit from Jilli's last class because she was in the hospital)
But I found out about some extra time we are going to be at rmh in April that I was not planning on that will likely put us there over a weekend so I went on to see if there was any openings for a zoo class for the girls.
Now we are butting up to a problem with Jilli's age. There are parent and child classes until a child's 6 birthday but then other then family classes, adults are not allowed in the classes. I fully understand that for typical kids dropping a 6 year off for zoo class is a normal thing to do, however Jilli is not a typical 6 year old and I do not expect non trained people to be responsible for her oxygen and feeding pump and monitoring needs... she isn't even allowed to be dropped off at sibling care at our hospital because of her medical needs (their policy)...
In the class catalog it was listed that there was a family camp listed for the weekend I was looking at... and then I went to register and the class was canceled. I was a little bummed but figured I would talked to Brent and could come up with a plan of one of us taking Lydia to a class and the other coming up with a fun adventure for Jilli at the zoo... I could be creative and make this work!
Then tonight I realized the summer catalog for zoo class had come out...
there are no family classes this summer...
NONE...
I want to cry.
For my sweet girl...
For my feelings...
I will call... I'll try to figure something out. I get it, in the midst of our world going to zoo class in not the end of things... we have much bigger fish to fry, especially this week, but...
This just feels like one more thing I have to figure out
it feels like one more thing that causes more work because the world isn't set up for kids like mine... and that's not my kids fault, or honestly even the zoos fault, just sometime having to always advocate for things that the rest of the world can just sign up for online feels tiring.
On top of home schooling, and a weird waver situation, and all the other things on my to do list today... this just feels heavy.
Honestly, its fine, I will figure it out...
but sometime I just take a moment to feel frustrated because I thought I had an easy way to make zoo classes work as the girls got older (there are age group classes for kids up to 14, just not with adults allowed in) but then for that to not end up working just feels frustrating... I think part of it is that I thought it was an easy adaption.
Im sure there is a reason they are not offering that class... it just feels like extra hoops now.
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