The ups and downs of a day

Up:

Jillian worked hard on her speech homework

Down: talking makes her reflux so much she was trying not to puke

Up:

She said "help" without prompting. We have been working on this for over a year!

Down: I worked on reteaching her how to "click" her tongue tonight. If you are close to Jillian you will know how much "clicking" meant to her. This is the third time we are reteaching her how to click. She looks so frustrated when we are having to reteach her something. It breaks my heart. 

Up: I got all my "big girl" phone calls done today. Sitting on the phone with insurance companies and such are not hard, but mentally draining. Jillian's collage fund company was kind to me when I called because I forgot my password. 

Down: Jillian's state insurance said I needed to call them, I did, they treated me like I was crazy when I called

Up: watching Jillian happily play with her friends

Down: a coworker and I just shaking pur heads as we watched her walk. It is just so uncoordinated. She walks from point a to b but really watch her legs sometimes and compare it to how other two year olds walk. 

Up: Jillian took a two hour nap today

Down: she sweat so much I have to change her sheets. 

Up: I got to cuddle with my little girl

Down: there is no down... You could say I got less house work done because I sat for an hour but time with Jillian is more important. 

Each day has it's ups and down, it's about how you look at it. Today was a good day. I got to hold my little girl, I got to teach my students, I got to be a mom and wife even when that includes doing grown up things. 

While my life might seam crazy sometimes, I really am happy. Realistic about our life, but still find joy. Life is good. God is good...all the time. 

This is a picture of Jillian of Saturday singing "let it go" into her pretend microphone. She shares the frozen love with most  of the country. She loves the songs (really she does not care about most of the rest of the movie) she has been singing "let it go" which is funny because the only word she can say in the song is "go" so she loudly, with lots of pride, sings the word "go." I love her love for music, determination, and that she is not afraid for the world her hear her sing.