Grainy

We have done two more times of 5ml of milk on the spoon and then 10ml of milk mixed with cereal. 

Here is a message I wrote to a friend about Thursday's feeding:

Her second spoon feeding ever. She did about the same as yesterday. She starts good and about 1/2 way through she starts shoving her passy in her mouth after every bite and sucking hard. She is willing to eat til the end of the food but she spaces out bites really long. We were sure she was going to puke on us about 3min after finishing eating. She started heaving but was able to keep it in. She cried off and on after. She did give a good burp though after eating today which she did not do yesterday. Her breathing is loud now from the reflux and is coughing. I'm excited though that even though you can tell it hurts she is still willing to keep trying. She is such a fighter.

Last night she took it pretty well too. Towards the end she was interested in most things other then eating and would not look at the spoon at times. She was sloppier with eating and more of it came rolling out of her mouth. By the time she was done she was arching her back a lot and coughing. She did not want anyone but her mommy. The coughing continued through the night and got nasty sounding. her reflux cough is distinctive. This morning when she got up she was still coughing and you could hear that her vocal cords were full of puke. I decided I would vent her because it is just not good to still be refluxing 12hr later. I hooked up the syringe and 6ml of air and fluid came out. In the fluid was little grains of the cereal still. It was still sitting in her poor tummy. There was some stomach acid and flem mixed in too. The cough has gone away again and her breathing sounds better. 

Is it weird though that she smells "normal" to me with the smell of puke on her breath? That she almost smells funny when she has not been refluxing. I guess I'm ok with her not smelling normal though, it is just strange to me though on days when she does not smell like puke. Today however is not one of those non puke smelling days. 

I went to change her diaper earlier and noticed little dots in her diaper area. It looks like the rash that's on her tummy. The tummy rash has come and gone this week. Today her tummy is not red but her skin feels like sand paper. I gave her a bath. We will see if it helps. She ended her antibiotics Wednesday so we will see what goes on now. Those antibiotics helped her poop though. We were able to go down .3ml of laxative this week. I know that does not seam like a lot but for Jillian it is. Her poop was kinda like sandpaper at times though too this week. Today she has not pooped yet which tells me the antibiotics are out of her system, I'm just hoping it is a smooth transition back to normal laxative poop.