I'm not the best

Our culture right now is filled with a lot of people claiming they are the best ever at things... that no one else could ever be as great as they are.
And it has gotten me thinking...
I will never be the best at anything...
And the is beautiful...
Thats wonder...
And I am thankful!

I'm not the best writer... I go back and look at old posts and the mistakes drive me crazy, but I try to see how often these posts are writing while holding sleeping babies, or like at the moment then my living room is a tornado of toys and I'm sure it will only be a few minutes until I head "MOM!"... oh wait someones pump just started going off... and how sometimes that causes writing issues. There are days I am still amazed any of what I write is read.

I'm not the best teacher. I love education. I love teaching. Part of way I had to step away from teaching was because I felt like I couldn't give my students what they deserved out of a teacher because I had to miss work so often. As a homeschooling mom there are days we miss school or I get frustrated, or like today Lydia emptied the entire bookshelf while I helped Jillian work on number sense.

I'm not the best wife. There are far too many days where life is just the day in and day out. There are days I barely talk to my husband not out of anger but just out of busy and being a mom. There is times where I don't invest in him like I should.

I'm not the best friend. When we are going though crazy things sometimes I drop off the radar. I know I talk in a lot of medical term. My kids are with me 99% of the time which I enjoy but I know not everyone does. I know sometimes I stink at returning texts, or checking in on people, I often think about people a lot more then I actually communicate with them. I often want to be a more thoughtful person then I am.

I'm not the best mom. Parenting is one of those areas where it is so easy to see your shortcomings. There are so many things as a mom that I wish I was better at. I wish I read to them more. I wish I spent more one on one time with each of them. I wish I didn't get overwhelmed when they are both having moments where they are testing the world.

But I am thankful I'm not the best at any of these things.

Because I'm not suppose to be the best at everything.

I need to be interdependent.

I need to need other people.

I grow from needing others to support me.

If I was the best I wouldn't need other people. I wouldn't need God.

I'm thankful I don't know everything. Learning is fun. Talking with people about things is interesting.

Our culture really celebrates independence, and boasting, and thinking you are the best... But none of that is Biblical. 

We need each other. We need to love each other. We need to care for each other. These are things we always need to strive for growth in.

I was watching this interview earlier today and I was thankful for reminders about this. Reminders of humility and interdependence out of love.

Humility and self loathing are not the same thing. I am grateful for my weaknesses, even though some days they are frustrating. I don't hate me because I have shortfalls, I work to grow and learn but I understand I'm never going to be the best but that I can work to do my best.

I want to live this life not striving for my glory. My time on earth is fading. We are all terminal. But if I spend my life building up others and loving and pointing people to Jesus then I have done something bigger then me.