Head of GI decided that we needed to go to feeding team despite our thoughts on the situation. Our other appointments with GI were all cancelled (NOT by us) and we were told we had to see Feeding Team before we did anything else. To say I was annoyed was an understatement. Feeding Team's goal is to get kids that are SAFE to eat off of their feeding tube and eating normal food. They do this with a multidisciplinary approach and it is a great tool for kids that are at that point. We are no were near ready for feeding team with Jilli. She is still not safe to eat. For the past few months I have been stressed about this appointment.
My mom came with Jilli and I to the appointment. We got up there and I have to fill out more paperwork. They brought us back and measured Jillian. We we visited with GI back in May Jillian was
21 lb 1.7 oz and 75.4 cm. Friday she was 21 lb 1.6oz and 76.6 cm. (ie, no real growth in 3 months...) Jilli is looking more mature in the face so people keep telling us she looks like she is growing however she really has not.
We then went back to the feeding team room. It is a large room with a kid sized round table and an adult sized round table. It also has a lot of high chairs and cabinets. The first round of people came in. First we meet with a Speech and language path (same one who did Jillian's swallow study in June), an nutritionist, a psychologist, and a nurse.
Their first question was "What is the goal in bringing Jillian to feeding clinic?" My first response wanted to be "to jump through this stupid hoop that your boss is making us jump through so I can get the best care for my child because she really does not belong in this clinic..." but I took a deep breath, looked at my mom and said "Our goal is always that someday Jillian will be able to eat by mouth but what is most important to us is that she is SAFE to eat by mouth before we push it." They found that an acceptable goal...
We then discussed Jillian's case in detail. At the end of our discussion everyone made their recommendations.
SLP: You can try to do tastes (ie, dip a spoon in baby food and shake all of the food off so only the taste is left on but she can't get any volume) but only when it is safe and at our speed. She said Jilli is not safe to eat volume orally.
Dietician: Jillian has not been handling the goal of bumping her up to 61ml/hr. Since that is not working we are going to try mixing her formula to 22cal per oz instead of 20cal. We are hoping that she tolerates this change. Other then cal changes being hard on her pooping, she normally reacts to them well.
Psychologist: We are doing exactly what we should be. We are making the experiences with Jillian's oral med possessive and we have worked hard to keep her from developing an oral aversion. She said we are right that keeping her airway protected is most important right now. She said that she is there if we need her someday but right now is not the time for this.
Then everyone left to go meet with the Dr. (head of GI guy). Once they were done meeting they brought us to an exam room across the hall and we meet just with the dr. He shook my hand and said that he did not think we have ever met before. (insert a ton of emotions here that I kept inside my head). I reminded him that Jilli is the reason he had to listen to the theme song of Daniel Tiger's Neighborhood for over 30min one day. Then he remembered us.
He said with the conversation about muscle disorders and that she is not safe to eat that this was not the clinic for her (insert a momma who had to just smile or the sarcastic comments about this situation were about to go flying out of her mouth). He also said that some kids with muscle stuff only get worse with their GI stuff and that this clinic is here if we need it someday but that we might not. As hard as that is to hear it is a realization that we have already come to, it is just nice to see that he has finally gotten there too. We want our kid to eat but we have seen what has happened to her body since she has been born so we need to be realistic in order to give her what she needs.
He said they are transferring us to different clinic. The airodigestive clinic. It is a multidisciplinary clinic were an ENT, pulomonologist, GI and SLP work TOGETHER for kids with GI and lung problems! This sounds like where we should have been for months. In the end jumping through this hoop is going to get us better care for Jillian and in the end that was my goal.
They decided that we would be seen in the airodigestive clinic once every 6months (starting in September) and then see our NORMAL GI dr each month in-between! To me this sounds like the best of both worlds! We get to go back to the dr we like and get to work with a team that specializes in kids like Jilli. The only snag in this plan was that a dietician does not work in the airo clinic and a dietician needs to see Jilli next month because we are making the changes to her cal count.
The nurse came into the room and said that mom and Jilli should stay in the room and wait for all of the paperwork that they needed to give us and that I should go up front to make a separate appointment. As I was walking up front our favorite nurse was about to enter someone else's room. She and I stood and talked for a minute and then she wanted to see Jilli. We then went and found Jilli. She talked to her for a little bit and then decided that we needed to go see everyone else. See Jilli is well known in the GI department. A lot of different people have worked with us and she steals their hearts. Our nurse took off with Jillian in her stroller down the hall. We left my poor mom sitting in a room alone waiting for paperwork. Jilli and I got to go in the offices to see different people that we knew. Then someone found us with the paperwork. We talked for a minute and they said we could go make the appointment. My mom found us and we headed to the front desk. There was a new receptionist and she was having a hard time making the appointment with the dietician so our dietician ended up coming up to help.
We left there and headed down the elevator. As we got out of the elevator on the second floor there stood our old dietician who we have a great relationship with. We stood at the elevator and talked for a while and then a different GI nurse came by and we all stood there and talked. It was just one of those days were we ran into all of our favorite (except our normal dr and favorite receptionist) around GI. The GI department LOVES our little girl. Many of them would bend over backwards for her and many have. From personally carrying Jillian into the OR so she is not scared to taking time to really listen to what we are saying, the support staff in GI is amazing. They are the ones that have made Children's feel more like home to us and they truly care (to the point where I wrote many of them thank you cards and Jilli is known as the little girl's picture who sits on desks all over GI).
We then headed to see my cousin Luke. We ran into them on Monday when we were up at Children's and he was still stuck there. We visited with him and his mom for a while.
We then went to Cheesecake Factory for lunch and then stopped at the zoo to ride on the train (we promised Jilli we would take her on the train for how good she had been) We stayed at the zoo for a couple of hours and then headed to Target to pick a few things up. We then headed back to my parents.
Jilli and I have been staying at my parent's for a few days. Dan has C. Dif. It can be very contagious and deadly for kids like Jilli. I have had C Dif in the past making me more likely to get it again (I got it from contact with someone who had C. Dif, I had not been on antibiotics or in a hospital in over a year when I got it.) I contacted my doctor and he said that once the house was scrubbed top to bottom with bleach that Jilli and I could go back home. Brent has been working since Thursday to get the house clean enough for us to go home. I am really hopeful to go home soon. Please pray that none of the rest of us get it and that Dan starts to feel better quickly.
I want to thank all of the people who were praying. I sent out a couple of texts Thursday night asking for prayers about the appointment and for the C. Dif situation and we were covered in prayers. I am so grateful for the people in our lives so stand by us and pray for us, offer encouraging words, or let us crash at their house randomly because we can't go home. I am so grateful and we are so fortunate that God has provided some amazing people in our lives! This is not an easy road but God is good and He provides what we need.
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